Trials, Love and Tears.....

I know everyone is struggling with the economy and life sucks for pretty much everyone right now.

Andy and I are blessed. We have each other and our children. We struggle financially. I think anyone with a child that has special needs, and who has a plethora of medical issues does. It becomes your new normal, and you can't remember what it was like before everything happened, nor would you have it any other way.

Andy's a car salesman. That means he gets straight commission. For a few months he did really well. The struggling economy hadn't hit Utah too hard. But now things are rough. Now we are really worried about how we are going to pay rent and utilities.

Last night I was really stressed about it. I was lying in bed wondering what we are going to do, how we are going to do it, and what the future will hold. I was watching TV, and everyone else in the house was asleep.

About 2 am I heard my favorite little three year old feet, padding down the hall into our room. I wish you all could hear that little sound, and share the joy of knowing what is coming as soon as those little feet reach you.

I laid there for the 3 or 4 seconds that it took for Rhett to reach me, and marveled in the joy of the sounds that make my heart soar. As soon as he saw me, he gave me a sleepy grin. He rubbed his droopy eyes with his chubby little hands and raised his arms to me. "Up Mommy", he says.

I picked him up and was the lucky recipient of one of his gigantic bear hugs. Then I laid him in between Andy and I. He pulled up the covers and snuggled down in between us, and put one hand on Andy's back, and one hand on my arm. He looked at me and grinned that sleepy grin again. "Happy, Mommy."

Through my tears I said, "Yeah buddy. This is what happiness is all about"

My sad tears turned into happy tears.

I love each one of my kids so much. I am so blessed to have such an amazing husband, and a strong marriage. We might get on each others nerves once in a while, and Andy may be gone alot trying to provide for our family, but the moments that we spend together are so precious.

Rhett's favorite treat has always been M&M's.

I have always told him that I love him more than all the M'n'M's in the world.

Chloee is loved more than all the Daisy's in the world.

Hunter is loved more than all the stars in the sky.

Dakota is loved more than all the fish in the sea.

And Andy. Andy is my knight in shining armour. My soul mate. I love him with my whole heart and soul.

After pondering this, it helped me to realize that once again, money really didn't matter. It usually works out in the end.

Besides, I have faith.

Faith guides us through the tough times, and Love guides us through everything.