Fine. I admit it.
I have been neglecting the blog world. Not just my wonderful friends and your blogs, but my own blog as well.
Life is busy. I am busy. I have been doing some soul searching and trying to figure out who I am now that my life doesn't revolve around taking care of a sick child 24/7.
The last 3 years it seems that I have forgotten someone important.
Of course I wouldn't trade it for anything. I mean, where would Rhett be today had I not quit my full time job to be his mommy/nurse. I threw myself into making sure that he has the very best life that he can, and that included many surgeries and hospital stays to get to where he is now.
But he is soaring higher than I ever thought possible.
When he was first born I was told by many specialists that he would do most of his learning in the first 8 years of his life, and then he would start to taper off a bit, and won't learn so rapidly. I was also told that during those 8 years, that the first 3 were the most important to his learning and development.
I have often felt that we have lost precious learning time due to so many health issues. I had in my mind these visions of sitting with him spending one on one time going over letters of the alphabet, learning colors, and maybe even working on reading.
I don't think I ever envisioned his first 3 years fighting for his life.
But, things don't ever really work out like we plan. I have learned that first hand.
Even when life is filled with trials and ups and downs, we have a chance to change things and make things better.
You are the only person that can make you happy. Even if you are being dragged around and thrown under semi after semi, you can either choose to be happy, or choose to feel sorry for yourself.
Me? I want to be happy.
But how do I make myself happy? Who is Pam? What does she want for herself, not those around her.
For so long I have held off on my dreams, and now I am ready to pursue them. Not all at once, just little by little.
Our condo has a clubhouse with a gym, so I am going to start working out and eating more healthy. Whenever I play softball in the spring and summer, I always am energized because I am exercising. So simple solution is to start exercising again.
I have been having some woman health issues lately. I don't know what will happen or where this path will lead, but for now it's time to take care of my body.
Anyhow, that's where I am in life. Now that I have decided that this is what I need to do for me, well, I hope to be back to blogging. I miss it. I miss my friends, I miss reading about all of you.
Okay, enough about me. I bet you are all wondering what Sir Rhett has been up to.
I cannot believe how much he has changed since he started school. He is so grown up, and this little boy has himself some very good big boy manners. He even listens when I tell him no.
He has also learned some things that are not so good. Like, digging for gold....
Not the best picture, it was taken with my cell phone.
Rhett has also learned to open his own fruit snacks and Pop Tart wrappers. He is quite the little teaser, and will come up to you act like he is gonna give you a kiss, then say. "Heyyyyyyy" and turn around and run away.
He's also into the "mine" stage. You'd think I'd hate it, but I don't. I love it that he is acting just like any other child who is 3. I have to grin every time he does it. Granted, not while he's watching.
Hard to put on a straight face when I am so proud of even the naughty things he does. There have been so many times I never thought we would make it this far, yet here we are, and I am loving every minute of it.
He loves the bus, and gets on it with a great big smile, and a "Hi" to his driver and tech. His teachers love him, just like anyone else who has ever met him. I'm telling you, one glance into those baby blues and you're a goner.
Life is good, and things always work out in the end.
Today is Andy's birthday and we got to spend the day together. We went on a date which consisted of Bowling, Eating at Marley's, and wandering around the Harley Davidson shop. Then we went to a movie, and got to sit through the whole thing without taking kids to the bathroom. It was awesome. I'd forgotten how much fun we have together.
Things are looking up, and we are heading towards a new chapter in our lives. I can't wait to see how it all plays out.
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